You all will be happy to know that I flowed pretty well on the way to VT w. the kids. Only yelled two or three times….I wished I never yelled, but I would have to live in an alternate reality for that.
It is SO hot here. Jeez! A little breeze would be nice.
So, this is the yearly trek to VT to remember my sister on her bday. She was killed in a car accident in ‘92. Usually, my mother and I go to the cemetary we bring balloons and flowers and then we go to lunch. In the evening the whole family goes out and we let the balloons go. My kids never met my sister and she was killed on her daughter’s first bday. The balloons are their gift to her.
Today, things have changed. It is 12 years and things do change. My sister’s presence has been very strong here at the house and she is not at the cemetary anymore. My mother even acknowledged that…so we are/were kind of a loss in what to do…I mean I really I don’t feel need to visit her there at her headstone, when I feel her so strongly right here. Mom and I did go to lunch and then (can u believe it ) the grocery store. Some days are just surreal.
It seems like we are going to have to create a new tradition. My kids love to do the balloons, so I think tomorrow I will go get some and bring them here and they can send them to Heaven tomorrow. Maybe, we just needed to wait for DH this time. He is SUPPOSED to come up tomorrow.
I am feeling her so strongly and feel like I should do something, but what I have channeled her before. It is hard w. her, ‘cuz I get nervous if what I hear is correct. It is my sister and I get invested in the outcome and want to make sure the message is clean……. (they (Guidance) are telling me this is where that FLOW thing comes into play).
Peace
